This is me
Happy New Year! 2008 has been, well, it’s been a year. I haven’t really sorted out my feelings about the past 12 months. There have been alot of blessings and alot of sorrows. Some major changes (both personally and globally) and alot of days that just sort of ran together. This is my first post in months, I think since September, and if anyone was checking I apologise. I seem to have been hiding in my insulated little corner of the world padded by thousands of yards of yarn. I’m not really sure how I got here. It must have been a slowww slippage down into the abyss since I didn’t even notice until now.
Since it’s the beginning of another year I have been thinking about what I want to do different this year (you know, the old “New Years Resolutions”) and then I heard this voice in my head shout “NOOOOOOOOO” (please don’t worry, I am farely certain it was just my subconcious speaking). Every year I make a “list” of stuff that looks great on paper but in actuality it’s just a wish list of stuff I want my fairy god mother to wave her wand and make it so. Optimistic yes, realistic no. So I have decided instead to work on those things about myself that are in my control and stop hiding my head in the sand (or yarn in my case).
I figured the first thing I needed to do was take an HONEST look at myself, physically, mentally and emotionally. So that’s what the photo is all about. This is me. I am 43 years old, 5’4 1/2″ tall, 163 lbs and live in sweatshirts. I have my hair in pigtails most of the time (and if I am being honest this is NOT a good look on me) and seldom wear makeup anymore. We are starting with the physical since it is the most visible. I posted the picture in black and white because right now that is how I see myself. I am going to start working on that now, but I have a feeling the physical changes will be the easy part.
So here is my promise. I will always be honest in my blog but try to not be a pity party. If it sounds like I am will someone, anyone, please verbally smack me in the head? This is the first day of the rest of my life, right??? I have decided to make the change be me.
